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i hate this feeling.

the feeling of solitude.
the feeling of isolation.
the feeling of segregation.
the feeling of desolation.
the feeling of deliriousity.
the feeling of dementation.
the feeling of derangement.
the feeling of singularity.
the feeling of inchoatedness.
the feeling of solitariness.
the feeling of emptiness.
the feeling of reclusiveness.
the feeling of forlornness.
the feeling of dissolution.
the feeling of adytum.
the feeling of beleaguerment.
the feeling of sequestration.
the feeling of ...

i sometimes do envy the kids i teach at sunday school. For the rest of their lives, they will never know those feelings. They will never, for a single bit, feel that they are alone. Instead, their world is theirs and theirs alone. No one can take it away. If only man are not such complex creatures. If only man are not such scheming beings...

sigh...